I often wonder if my in work to become a better trial lawyer,, I don’t overdo the psychodrama aspect of it. I probably should let each of you know that i firmly believe that by working on the horse and not just buying a pretty saddle,, the horse has the best chance of winning the race.

It is nice to have a pretty saddle, but if that’s all you have along with a 10 dollar nag,, when you race a thoroughbred,, you end up in last place and the thoroughbred can simply trot to the finish line way ahead of your pretty saddled horse on the nag.

So, here I am traveling across the country learning psychodrama, and other self-improvement techniques and I begin to wonder if the internal work I’m doing at a breakneck speed is getting any results for myself or most importantly,, my clients.

I guess somewhere in this post,, I should let you readers know that this has been a very difficult year for me,, I went through a major divorce, (a gift), I was homeless,, (another tremendous gift),, I was near death in the ICU and many other numerous experiences that shaped the lessons I am re-learning properly in life.

It is very interesting to me to see the filters in my life that affect my decision-making processes and interactions with those who determine the fate of my clients,, and the ability to see if in fact I get paid. I am seeing the reality of what is actually in front of each of us as we make decisions. I feel an emotional component,, an analytical component and several filters that most of us aren’t even aware,, the filters of the parental units parenting skills,, the filters of the need to make enough money to survive,, the filters of the coworkers,, the filters of the family,, all in the direct line of sight of what we may think we actually see.

It is my strongest feeling that information is constantly being filtered by those factors we unconsciously are not aware and also by those factors of which we are aware.

So in the end,, one can only truly listen, see, feel, taste, or touch the real object only when one removes those filters we all have imbedded in us.

For instance,, most experts are not to be argued with on the technical points of their area of expertise,, you’ll always lose,, one however can be quite successful if one sees what occupation the expert is,, (i.e.,, healer, instead of physician) and begins to utilize the public figure of the witness as a beginning for him or her on cross-examination.

One can then rapidly pin the expert into making sure that the jury knows that he or she is an expert healer,, and then ask about acts consistent or inconsistent with the art of healing, vs. being a paid whore expert.

Continuing along those lines the expert healer can then be shown what his or her perception is filtered by rather than just the obvious line of connection between the patient and the healer. I’m simply saying,, the expert can then be shown that there really are a number of ideas, (filters, if you will) between the expert and the patient. I add filters such as medical school professors,, parental units, country club dues, yacht fees, partners, insurance company money, spouses, children, tuition, obligations,, other patients, etc.,,, until it is impossible for the expert to ever see the patient to heal them.

All I’m saying is this,, perception is different when reality is added into the picture.

Does psychodrama help me in trial? Absolutely yes,, for I then see the truth and all its filters and easily see how the person can be confused and mistaken by the report prepared. I also use the document to show what is not there,, versus what the document says.

I can only say the benefits of psychodrama carry onto making me a better horse than just one with a pretty saddle. May each of you experience the therapy you seek and see the truth you so desperately desire. Peace.